Seindah Suria

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But when I think of you
I long to feel your touch
To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine
I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should've made my move when you looked in my eyes
cause by now I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side
I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time
So today, I finally find the courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move when I finally get to it
Just like a thousand times before
Then without a word he handed me this letter
Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said
I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time
Well maybe i, I need a little love yeah
And maybe i, I need a little care
And maybe i, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you
Oh you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out and I'll be there
I love you, please say
You love me too
Please say you love me too
Till the end of time
These three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Oh, I love you
Please say you love me too
Please please
Say you love me too
Till the end of time
My baby
Together, together, forever
Till the end of time
I love you
I will be your light
Shining bright
Shining through your eyes
My baby
love my hubby edy...ayg syg kamo!!!3months,3weeks n 2days.

June 25th 2009 Myspace.com

In Loving Memories , E .

Currently Listening to Empire State Of Mind by Alicia Keys

July 13 2010

If you happen to read this status of mine i posted in FB .. This is actually for you ..

"I hate to admit this,but my feelings for u never Dies . although previously my egos are strong,but i cant cheat my own heart can i? i know its Impossible for us to be together again,but i really want u to know that deep down inside in my heart,ur name will always be written there till i breath my last air.."

July 13 2010 at 4.39 am .

DyNa

Walking by the days we had shared and gone through together , the happiness and the sadness , you'll always be in my mind and heart . You'll always be my first true love . And i'd never regret a day of my life i had with you .

But i regret , of what i'v done . That made me loose you . I lost something so important in life . When I'm with you , you lighted me up , u gave me the spirit to live , to improve in life , to change and to be serious and mature . And you are special to me that no other person will ever be .

Although if we're not fated to be together , i'll just have to be thankful that at least i did had a chance to be with such a wonderful person like you .

Without you in my life , is just like a bird without it's wings ..

How much i want you to know the feelings i have for you still ...

The truth is , i don't deserve you . What i deserve for all my sins and wrong doings to you is to loose you . And that will kill me slowly till the last breath i take in life .

I'll never ever be able to forgive myself for what i've done .

Although how much i love you , i just have to keep it to myself .

And just would like to see you happy . The happiness that i'd never gave .

I would like you to know , no matter what happens in the future , i would really appreciate it if the both of us still have our memories fresh in mind . Cause i know i will ...

My favorite song i sang with you :)

Ada makanan depan mata , makan gak .

Aku rindukan kau .. Aku rindukan segalanya tentang kau . Lagu lagu yang kau selalu nyanyi , aku tak pernah lupa .. Suara merdu kau .. Dah lama aku tak dengar kau nyanyi .. Setiap lagu yang kau nyanyi aku suka .. Aku rindu laa nak jalan tepi pantai ngan kau .. Duduk tepi pantai malam malam dulu ..
Aku rindu gambar gambar masa kita kat sana .. Aku sayang sangat kat gambar gambar kita tu ..


Aku rindu keluar makan dengan kau .. Selalu aku duk pecah kepala kat mana aku nak bawak kau makan sedap . Kau tu kadang kadang memilih sikit makan makan ni .. Aku pun rindukan masakan kau .. Semuanya dapnye dapnye .
Rindu tengok kau masuk air kadang kadang . Kelakar kau ni kadang kadang . Rindu nak borak borak ngan kau .. Aku boleh cerita apa saje kat kau . Tak pernah sekali kau buat aku rase down . Kau sentiasa bagi aku semangat . Aku tak pernah bermanja ngn sesiapa macam mana aku ngn kau . Aku rindu bila kau merajuk ngn aku .. Aku rindu kau buat muke bengang kau tu pastu pukul pukul aku ngn bantal apa semua . Malam malam aku lapar je , kau lah yang teman aku makan . Kau pun tau kan perut aku cane .
Hmm , aku rindu nak picit kepala kau bila kau pening .. aku rindu nak usap kepala kau .. Bila aku sakit , kau jaga aku .. Aku rindu nak suapkan kau makan . Tengok kau makan . Aku paling suka lah tengok kau makan . Tapi tu lah kau , risau sangat gemok . Kau nak kurus macam mane lagi ? Ah . Bila ada makanan depan mata kau bedal gak .
Aku rindukan kau yang dulu . Kau yang sayangkan aku pada mula . Aku rindu semuanya tentang kau . Banyak kenangan manis kita yang masih segar dalam ingatan aku .. Tiap kali aku rasa rindu , itu lah yang mampu aku buat . Hanya untuk mengingati saat saat bahagia aku ngan kau dulu .. Bila aku dengan kau , bila aku tengok paras rupa kau , senyuman kau , mata kau , aku rasa tenang .. Takkan pernah aku boleh lupakan kebahagiaan yang kau dah bagi kat aku . Kau ajar aku banyak benda dalam kehidupan . Kau banyak bersabar dengan tingkah laku aku . Dan yang paling penting , kau bagi aku kasih sayang , perhatian dan semangat kat aku . Melupakan kau tu tak mungkin bagi aku . Aku pernah sayang kau , cintakan kau , aku pernah benci kau . Tapi aku tak boleh nak tipu diri aku , yang perasaan aku kat kau masih sama macam mana hari pertama kau jadi sebahagian dalam hidup aku . Tapi aku kena sedar yang kau bukan lagi milik aku . Aku redha dengan keputusan yang kau pilih dan apa yang kau rasa boleh membahagiakan kau .


Currently Listening to Untukmu Selamanya by Visa

Berubahlah ...

Aku tak tau lah kenapa dengan kau ni .. Kau tak sedar sedar dari kesilapan . Lepas satu , satu masalah yang kau cari . Kenapa dengan kau ? Dah banyak kali tuhan bagi peluang untuk kau . Bagi pilihan kat kau , tapi yang tak elok juga yang kau pilih . Kau insaf sekejap pastu buat balik . Kenapa dengan kau ni ?! Apa masalah kau sampai kau nak buat semua ni ? Tak cukup masalah lagi ke yang kau dah datangkan kat diri kau ngan family kau sepanjang hidup kau ? Kalau kau tu anak orang kaya takpe lah jugak . Kau dah tau kau tu ngah susah , family tengah tunggang langgang . Mak bapak makin hari makin tua . Tapi kau tetap ngn hidup kau sendiri . Kau seolah olah takde family . Kau bawak diri , kau cari pasal . Apahal ngan kau ni sebenarnye ?Apa yang kau nak dari kecik semua kau dah dapat . Sikit bersyukur pun tak . Dah dah la tu . Sampai bila kau nak jadi macam ni ? Semua benda kau dah cuba . Semua yang tak elok . Bila kau nak jadi orang ? Bila kau nak sedar ? Betol betol sedar ? Kau dah besar . Kau dah boleh fikir mana elok mana tidak . Berubahlah ...

Currently Listening to Glow by Madcon

Holding the hand that was once mine .

I loved , i suffered , i was weak once , it helps me to become stronger and i was thankful for that .

But fate , is fate . No one and nothing can do anything about it .

We haven't been talking to each other for seasons .. My egos and negative thoughts were controlling every inch of me . I tried to ignore , i tried to hate , i tried to flirt , i tried thousands of ways just to keep myself strong . And i made it ..

I was yet , becoming stronger in a totally wrong way . I became stronger by putting too much of egos and negative doings . I was beginning to accept that she's not mine . And i don't even want to know who the hell is she . Honestly .

I wasn't even bother about what's going on with her . I'd stopped every ways of contact with her. I didn't even wish her on her Birthday .

I was so filled up with hate , and egoism . This happened and existed in me for quiet a long time .

One night , i was in need of a person to talk to . Spontaneously , i chose to call her .I shared my matters with her regarding of another girl that i was into at that moment . She was surprised that i called , but she listened . To every word that i say .. She even gave me advices , positivity , and made me felt stronger . I couldn't really understand why did i chose to talk to her . After so many nights of full moons i havent spoken to her . Why at that time , i had to call her ?

On that night onwards , we started contacting each other although not too often , but i'm thankful that i'm accepting her back in my life .. As a friend ..

Whenever i'm with the person that i'm into at that moment , i'll still think of her .

I don't understand why . It's like , i missed her . Too much . But didn't admit so .

Everything was fine till after a not-so long period of time , we both seems to miss each other so much that made us text each other a lil about the past and admited that we do miss each other . I've made a promise to her at that time she demanded for . And at that time , i was confused but in the same time happy . I felt to be cared , loved and appreciated again . What she texted me , the way she texted me , she gave me the spirit to live , she makes me feel happy , and it gave me Hope .

Rite after , we weren't actually becoming what i was hoping for . She doesn't contact me much after that so did i . I was starting to feel suspicious . I started feeling a lil weird and also curious . Of what exactly she wants ? She's now single . So why can't like , .. Maybe she get close to me . But that was what i just thought about in the first place . After a while , i just tried to ignore .

We'd never kept in touch with each other much , she has her life and i had mine .

I was just still accepting that she's not mine . And at that time too , i had my own existing personal life .

But as days flew by , i was slowly feeling what i felt before for her . I begun to felt love again . And i was afraid . I just tried not to think of her much . But nothing can stops what our hearts feels rite ?

And each day of us being friends , it just makes me misses her more . All the memories i've had and shared with her slowly kept coming back to my mind . Those sweet memories ..

Till the day i got to know that she was actually close to another person and she was also interested in him . At that time , i didn't even know how i felt . But what i'm sure of is that what i hoped for or thought of was yet , just a dream .

I tried playing cool .. But only god knows how i felt . I just kept it to myself .

And slowly trying to accept it for the second time .

Came a day , .........

We held hands , we hugged . Just so she says she misses me . So do i ..

I felt the warmness of her hug , i felt to be loved , cared , appreciated , again .

I feel different when i'm with her . I just do . I just felt , everything was just Perfect .

Everything became so perfectly sweet to me . I started to care , and love her again the same way i did .. That i wanted to be back to her and to prove that i've changed ..

The promise that we made earlier , i've done it .

But it all turned out wrong . I shouldn't have those kinds of feelings towards her .. Cause in the end , it hurts me in return ..

All i ever wanted for her since the day we separated , was for her to be happy and for a chance for her to choose her decision of happiness .

She misses me the same way like i do , But she doesn't feel what i'm feeling for her . She just misses me . That's all .

I was trying to accept that she is not in to me anymore , and that she likes another person .

But in the same time it also triggers my mind why don't i deserve a second chance ?

I was confused .. Of what exactly i'm feeling actually . I loved her once , i forgotten about her once , and i loved her once again exactly the same way .

Life isn't complete without her . No one , can ever be like her . No one , can ever be perfectly better . And No one , will be able to replace her . She's special . That's all i can say .

What i can do now is just to pray to God . That she'll be happy . And for me to be strong . I just cant accept what i'm going through again for the second time . I just can't go through it again .

I have to be strong , I just have to .

For her to be happy , i'll just have to let her go again although its hard . How i wish that she can be with me .. But i guess , that's just a dream .. For now , i just dont know what will be , but what i can do is , to pray that she'll make the rite decision and not getting hurt anymore . I just can't see her being hurt anymore . I pray that i'll be stronger and can accept things the way it is .

Amin .

Currently Listening to Love Comes Again by DJ Tiesto

Confusion leads to Frustration .

Why ? am i feeling this again ..

Why ? am i feeling happy but down in the same time ..

Why ? am i still so deeply in love with u ..

Why ? can't i just forget about u ..

Why ? can't i just live without u ..

Why ? can't i just move on with someone else ..

Why ? don't i deserve a second chance to be with u ..

I'm just not really sure of what am i experiencing and feeling at the moment .

I've learned from the pass , never to repeat in the future .

I'm thankful of what had happened , it made me stronger .

Here we are again under the same apple tree , but the difference is just u and me .

We're not like before , that's what u asked for .

Dear God , the only thing i wish for is , for u to be happy and for me to forget . At least , for me to forget ..